He’d been whipping my ass until it stung raw, but this was no punishment; not this time. This time, i had requested this as my ‘reward’ for good behavior. What was happening to me? This violent passion, these traipses across the delicate ‘boundary’ we created when we were embarking on this excursion into sin and darkness; lines were being crossed without abandon.
Hit me harder, harder. I need your pain, I need to feel that passion, the violence lingering between your atoms, the very agony that stitches you together is the same passion that fuels my fidelity.
Like a moth drawn to the heat of demise, this is what I need to survive… or to self-destruct; my passions care not for the difference between the two. Tonight, you need only express your most base instincts, I know I can take it.
Your fingers skip the formalities my lithe young body craves and find their mark with the precision of a practiced gentleman. Rather forcibly, you make your way into me with a marked violence I can’t say I’ve experienced until tonight, but I am not disappointed.
The force with which we shatter as one is far beyond my few inexperienced years on this planet yet enough to grant me a foresight I do not deserve.
Finally, I cry out so loudly you recall yourself and grant me the slightest reprieve. Panting, I beg with my every movement for You. Any form of you that you are willing to grant me.
And satisfy you do. With every adept movement, I am pushed further and further to the brink of my limits, somehow enticing you to the brink of yours as well.
It looks as though I’ve lucked out; it would seem as if your need for release comes right as my body can take no more and involuntarily, I shudder against you, crying out against my own resolve.
I lay spent and exhausted on a bed I know I will have to depart before I can fully rest.
Because that’s what we are. We connect but the opposite charges that fill us also keep us apart. So we bounce off of one another, colliding and departing in such a dramatic fervency that we can’t seem to keep our wits about us for even a fragmentary amount of time; sparks fly between us instead of affections.
Eventually, you make it clear that you are finished with me for the night and i am to return to my confined chamber you call a mercy.
As I pass you on my way, garments gathered in my arms, your slender fingers grace my shoulders… we make eye contact:
“You are a mystery, my doll.”
“And while you’re outside looking in, describing what you see; remember what you’re staring at is me.”
~ana